"You got to get it right/ while you've got the time." -- MJ, "Man In the Mirror"
It's Sunday night. Have been back in Birmingham for about 24 hours and still trying to process last week.
I spent a lot of time in Lubbock, Texas, quite accidentally getting to know more about Buddy Holly. On Friday night I spent time with several of his family members after seeing "The Buddy Holly Story" live (excellent by the way). It was incredible to get to chat with Buddy's nieces and nephews in his hometown. They were generous in sharing their stories of a fallen rock n roll legend, who seemed to be a truly good guy.
Although I grew up with Buddy Holly on the radio it was only during this trip that I realized his profound influence on music, from the Beatles to Elton John (and in my eyes to punk and ska and the pop of today). Needless to say, I am a convert to rockabilly thanks to this Texas son.
I visited the Buddy Holly Museum around lunch time Wednesday. I took pictures of Buddy Holly and Elvis, unknowing that 24 hours later we would lose our childhood idol.
When I was a very little girl -- eight I think -- my mom and dad took me to see him. Michael Jackson and his brothers on the Victory Tour. It was right after "Thriller's" release. I vividly remember walking through the parking lot to the auditorium, wishing that I had pierced ears like my cousins so I could wear a gloved earring.
I remember crying, reaching out for my superstar, the one I stared at all the time on the "Thriller" album cover. And when I went home I taught my brother all the moves of the gloved one. We watched "The Making of Thriller" time after time. And when we went to Disney we would watch MJ in "Captain EO" time after time. In 3-D. My brother and I were infused with a love of dance. It would change both of our lives, with he becoming a Broadway star and me, well, becoming me.
Of course I would outgrow Michael like most of us did. I became a punk rock girl with Doc Martens and black hair, then an indie girl with blonde hair, and then a mama. And I will be the first one to admit that I forgot about him -- that influence -- during the zany years.
But not now.
I believe that we are all put here for a reason. Sometimes the very gifted are here for a short time. They are misunderstood, be it a geeky boy from Texas or a pop superstar with four brothers.
"Carry me/ like you were a brother" -- "Will You Be There," Michael Jackson.
I do not believe that this was *the* watershed moment for Generation X, like some are saying. That is a shallow speculation for a writer on deadline. So easy.
MJ means something different for each of us, just like the other of the fallen pop idols. Were there problems? Addictions? Um, probably? But this is just a mirror to the rest of us.
I don't know what MJ's passing means to everyone else -- wow, that would assume a whole lot. But I know what it means to me, to my childhood dreams of "making that change." Thankfully I grew up, hanging on to shreds of that message.
Some little girls (and boys) are still dancing.